Gonna Change My Life

Long time didn't update my blog
There's a lot of things happened in this month
Yea,I really did wrong something
Something that made me really regret about that
Money,Parents,Friends,Lovers,Lifes,Futures
I spoiled it

I gonna move to China for few days later
Maybe for half year,1 year,2 years or more than that
I owe a lot of money in my hometown
I'm finding way to clear it
I want to earn a lot of money and bring all the money back to my hometown
And the main reason is me want to clear all the debt
If the day I back to my hometown
That means I really got my own life and I'm already a success man

For the girl
I loved you
And now I'm still loving you
But you seems like got a better one
I'll wish you
The promise I made
Wait me,I will be back
A different me,I just want to grab you back to me

I know I'm not the best
But I might try to be better
Involve myself to be a better one
I never back down
Because of you
Do you still remember our love song?
Do you still remember our memories?
Do you still remember our favourites?

All of that I still remember
I missed a lot of chance
In the future
I won't let all those chances miss up anymore
Wait me
I promised I'll be back
So please believe me

8 / 10 / 2012

I miss you
Do you know?
I like you
Do you know?
I love you
Do you know?

Today the whole day I moody
I worried
I worried that you will happen anything in Kuantan
Because this month was a bloody month
My a lot of friends already because of car accident in this month
I dont want anything happen on you

God,if really want
Just bring all those bad things on me
Don't pass to her
I just want her to live better
Now I know why them said
最算不在一起也可以很爱她
只要你看到她很幸福
你也会觉得很开心

I hope you're always happiness
Don't try to stop me to love you. CW

04 / 10 / 2012 (Interview Day)

Already 3.33am
But I still can't fall to sleep
Because of now I'm too panic
This will be my first time interview for a job
I never had any experience to interview for any job

I very confident on my sales techniques
But just feel that if later they asking me some weird questions
I don't know how I gonna answer them
I'd been online Google search for the information of interview a job
And also I searched some techniques from web

And for sure the reason why am I panic is.......
Because I don't have any certifications
I just only have a SPM slip
I scare that's not enough
Because the place I gonna work is Singapore

I want to find you and tell you all this things
But I know the night is late
And you had just finished the showcase
You must be very tired dy
Saw your status that you're happy then enough
You had enjoyed yourself with your friends

I will try my best on tomorrow
Hope that I can pass the interview
I really need this job
God bless please

03 / 10 / 2012

03/10/2012
Today I suppose be there with her
Today suppose is our first time dating
Today suppose is the chance that I can hold her hand
Today suppose is the chance that I can kiss her cheek

I don't know is me over confidence to myself or what
I felt that you're still loving me
And also the same
I'm still loving you
But our love although haven't together yet
There's already full of tears

If I leave your life
You can feel better
Then I rather choose to leave your life
I want you to be happy always like first time I knew you
The happy one

I love you.
Do you still love me?

30 / 9 / 2012 (What I should do?)

Today I cant sleep well again
Until morning only I can fall to sleep
I'm suffer that what I've did
I'm so hurt but no one know


O.C.WYou  really never believe me ?
I really spent me loves and hopes
But sometime I just can't control the situation changed


I could wait you
But that is so selfishI don't really know what
I need to doI just only can keep waiting
I don't know whether i need to together back with you now?
But I scare long distance will make our relationship like last time


I want a future
A future all about me and you
Thanks for telling me your feel on line
I feel so wrong and so sorry
What I need to do?
Be brave? Or just escape it?

27 / 9 / 2012

Long time didn't blogging

Today was a rainy day

I don't know why I'm  so bad luck for today

I lost my phone

And I also lost her

Yesterday I was broke my promised

I made her disappointed 

I made her cried

I made her sad

I made her heartless

I know what I did was very wrong

But please forgive me

I got my own reason too

Hope you can understanding me

But I think if I let you go,will you feel better?

A man always made you cried

A man always made you sad

A man always made you disappointed

A man always made you heartless

No wonder how I love you

I think we better just stay for a distance

Because a man like not worth to let others to love

I'm just a useless guy I know

Enjoy your life

You may get a better life :')

是我不会珍惜，还是你不会珍惜？

我们这算是在冷战吗？
我们到底是为了什么？
我们以前也发生过很多次类似的东西
但是我都一直主动向你认错
向你低头


可是这一次我没办法那样做
我为你做了那么多事
可是你却不能听我的话
让我可以放心一些
是我把你给宠坏了？